enough already...

Unemployed...  There's a word I didn't expect in my life.  Right up there with Divorced Single Mom...  I think it's safe to say my life has in no way turned out the way I had envisioned.  Don't they say God laughs at the plans we make?  I must be keeping him in stitches ;)

I really feel I am long overdue for a change of luck.  So, I'm gonna carry on and wait out this storm. Good things do come to those that wait, right?  RIGHT?? 

Still waiting God...  Quit laughing at me and get some good things going down here ;)

In the meantime, if any of you know of any medical transcription openings, CONTACT ME :)

My Plans For 2012

1. Let hair grow long...
2. Visit Kati in Norfolk!!! IF I don't get lost...
3. Get 2+ yrs worth of pictures into albums.
4. Sell diamond and buy BOOBS ;)
5. Go to work fulltime.
6. Pay off as much credit card debt as possible.
7. Cook more (not feeling real hopeful bout this one)...
8. Finish Morgan's baby book - because he is now FIVE :)
9. Get divorce finalized...
10. Be more patient with my boys and enjoy them more. Stay positive, worry less and BE HAPPY! :)

Longterm Goals: 
Look at house plans, pick out one for my little family of 3, and DREAM :)
Would love to write a book - Not this year, but ONE day...
Maybe meet someone who will sweep me off my feet... If not, I've realized I really can be "just peachy" all on my own :)

HELLO 2012

"... sometimes in the midst of a bad year you need to be able to go back and remember the good years." - from Big Mama Blog.  www.thebigmamablog.com

 True words... And also good to remember good parts from a bad year. While the majority of 2011 was hellish for me, there were some great times too and I tend to forget that...

Wyatt started 3rd grade and has made the honor roll. Morgan has become less difficult (at times). They both love me with all their hearts and cheer me up when I'm sad :) We spent an amazing, fun-filled week at Edisto with my brother's family. I spent another fun-filled weekend in Charleston (my favorite place on earth) with longtime great friends. We watched my sister-in-law bravely and uncomplainingly fight and overcome cancer :) My boys and I have been surrounded by friends and family like never before and realized how truly blessed we are. 

 So... Goodbye 2011 (the good and the bad) and Hello 2012 :)

my 2 handsome boys

great sister-in-law and friend

my "little" brother

best parents ever

my first friend

fun group

my boys

thank you pinterest :)

Proof that Pinterest is not a complete waste of time.  This neat idea kept my boys occupied long enough for me to clean up the kitchen and check my email in peace...

Add food coloring to shaving cream, give them brushes, and let them at it!

They had a BLAST! And, I think got relatively half-way clean in the process.

1 week to go...

Only 1 week til Christmas...  Been spending  waaay too much time on Facebook and Pinterest - can't seem to focus on anything that requires more brain power :/  Can't concentrate on work or Christmas or keeping the house clean or paying the bills on time.  Too many things running through my mind - the past, the present, the future, good memories, bad memories, what if?, why?, why not?, what the hell?...  So, rather than deal with that I've let myself get sucked into the complete mindlessness of Pinterest (which I highly recommend as an escape by the way).  On the plus side, I've found some really cute craft ideas for the boys.  I have them "pinned" and ready to go for NEXT year when I'm planning on having the energy and the holiday spirit to actually get something done :)

Looking forward to starting over in 2012 - brand new year, brand new life and hopefully a happier one :)

The boys are so excited about Christmas, and I'm determined to make it the best one ever for them :)  I am so proud of how they've adjusted to everything over the past several months, even with their world being turned upside down.  They don't deserve what they've been through, but they are my tough little guys.  They still hurt my feelings and make my cry, but they make me smile and laugh even more...

Merry Christmas from our new and improved family of 3! :)

Not So Peachy...

Even after the boys fell asleep tonight, I stayed in their beds smelling their hair (that I still use baby shampoo on).  It breaks my heart that my only 2 babies belong to someone I no longer have a life with - even though I don't want that life...  Does that make any sense at all??

Rough day, rough night - Tomorrow will be better! :)

Look what my sweet Wyatt made for me today!

Trick or Treat

Halloween 2011

Took the boys trick-or-treating with their cousins.  Think they'd be excited over the candy, right?  Oh no, not our kids... the highlight of their night was getting to press the doorbell which caused a fight at EVERY SINGLE house over whose turn it was to press the doorbell.  Then, there were the houses with just a bowl of candy on the porch.  Of course the boys freaked out thinking they had missed their turn.  And what about the houses where nobody was home?  Does that count as a turn, or do they get to go again?  I'm telling you ABSOLUTE NIGHTMARE.  Next year we will be better prepared with pre-trick-or-treating beverages and a designated adult doorbell ringer...